I have learned so much about myself in the last four years. It is impossible to know what you are capable of until you are put into a new situation. Four years ago I became a widow. I was 36 years old when my entire wold changed. My husband was killed , and I was left to raise our two small children alone. For many months I wasn't able to function. The ability to get the kids to school became an overwhelming chore on most days. I wasn't able to concentrate, or smile, or laugh. I didn't find the joy in anything.